Whats A Girl To Do

 Hey girl,

But really tho. I want more. Don't we all. Right now my obsession is everything cosmetic, something you

 would know if you paid attention to me 😒 

it's literally on my blog bro wth. Anyway, I really 

want a metal heavy duty makeup box and a 

Polka Dot Makeup Bag

nice size travel makeup bag 

WITH COMPARTMENTS for organization. Idk who tf

 is designing these bags and boxes these days., 

but I have no other option then to blame men 

for this catastrophe. Why is everything so 

empty and lame and BORING. 

WHO TF IS BRANDY MELVILLE AND WHY IS EVERYTHING ONE FUCKING SIZE

but why is it cute tho... somebody shoot me

QUICKLY

Literally bro

 wake me tf up from the goddamn nightmare.

Cherry Dots: Tagi Cosmetic bag

It has three zipper layers throughout the bag and much space for organization and shit like that. It pisses me off that they dont have any photos portraying the inside of the bag. Like who does that?? But I was able to find a tiktok review that goes through the bag. This bag has three color ways. 

So I found out that this is a Chinese brand, and now im feeling pretty niche. but yeah guys totally check this brand out it's pretty fun. 

Hold up, shout out to Asia rq because

why is this fucking play about them

The final WOTW is of course, a Toyo toolbox. 

TOYO Cantilever Toolbox 

Show of hands how many people guessed that shit. TOYO is a Japanese hardware brand (i think) and I #needthat. Literally look at the details. This is genuinely everything I ever wanted. I don't think i'll ever be satisfied unless I  have these two products. 

Honorable mention Marc Jacobs new cosmetics line. Like HELLOO the packaging kills me I love it and I need it. 

Movie Review #1 : It's What's Inside

Hey girl... 

switch bodies with me real quick lmaoo. Yall I pirated this movie after going through a slew of movie recommendation from strange, yes strange, woman online. Emphasis on the strange because those are the online kind of people I can trust, as a strange person. Strange recognizes strange i guess. Do yall think im funny 😕 should I stfu ?

 

 Idk girl, but let me tell you about the movie. So apparently its a college friend group who all linking up 8 years ( I think ) later because Rueben is getting married the next day. They invite a friend that was apart of the friend group originally but it's some tension because they got him kicked out of college. He shows up with technology that gives them all the ability to switch into each others body. Something tragic happens and they all have to make decisions. Sorry for the vagueness *sarcasm*. 

                       

                     *slight* ⚠️SPOILER ALERT⚠️

Obviously the relationship dynamics make the movie worth the wild. Shelby, the main character is insecure in her relationship, who can blame her with a man like Cyrus. Cyrus beats off to his white Instagram famous friend/lifecrush, Nikki, whenever Shelby isn't around. Weirdo. He never touches her and doesn't give her a reason why. He suggested maybe she wear a wig to switch it up spontaneously or something idfk, so she does. One day instead of going on her daily run at her scheduled time, she does her sexy makeup and puts on a blonde wig.

 

He asked for this blonde wig specifically. This is fucking me up because Shelby is a black queen okay, and he's wanting something she's not. IM not just bringing up her race for no reason, race is always a factor, as always. Race is brought up throughout the film so this is a extra layer in the plot, subtle, yet important  nonetheless. Now I need to watch this movie a good three more times to really give you essay on all of this and this is really taking all my brain power. Just imagine what it's like to be compared to someone whose nothing like you, there is no amount of physical changing you can do that turn you into them, it's ridiculous really. 

2024 Original Netflix Film: It's What's Inside 

For me the worst part of this movie was the loss of bodily autonomy, and what people chose to do while being in control of another's. Whole im watching I'm like damn, I feel like this is rape. Because what happens when I switch back into my body and I genuinely feel like I had sex, when I didn't, but oh yeah, yes I acually did and that was out of my control.... and I didn't know with who or who was even inside of me while doing that. Like what? Talk about nightmare fuel. 

But dont worry this friend group isn't more fucked up then the one in Bodies Bodies Bodies, by a long shot actually.. 

2022 a24, Bodies Bodies Bodies

I'll give It's What's Inside a solid 8/10 would watch again. Tap in yall, I linked it 😉

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Scents 𖠞༄

 Hey girl, 

I really want vanilla, coffee, incense, jasmine, tonka, powdery, silk, milky, oaky, smelling perfumes

Cheers for my first Want of the Week, or WOTF for short. I smell this perfume in a random local trinkets shop in my hometown and i haven't been able to stop thinking about it since; I cant even tell you what the notes are but jus know I want this. Like genuinely tht's all I could say. I think it's locally source I cant even read who madee it and they said they not selling it online I read the website I just have to hope it's there whenever I go, and I hope it's long lasting.

 Literally the notes??? and this witchy ah mf on tiktok describing it and I already trust her man I NEED this. I want this. These niche ahh perfumes are really a gamble because          of course you cant smell it. I would jus get the travel one to be safe.

I have seen Universal Flowering be recommended over n over n over, but this scent especially has me curious.  What does aromantic smell like?? 

Im so used to the same things. I really have a issue of repetition. I eat the same thing, do the same hairstyle, wear the same clothes. go to the same places, smell the same, buy the same makeup, wear the same colors. Like is that normal? Like nothings new. And Im doing my best to change. Because change is good, and inevitable. If I can change what I can control then when the unexpected changes come, ill handle it better. I dont know bro, maybe im just crazy. Maybe I just like routine, it's safe, it's familiar. But I just dont wanna get too comfortable. 

Guess who went shoppin, I DID 🛍

Hey girl, 

Guess who went shopping? Its me ! YAY ! Everything except for the white lace top I got from goodwill. I got the lace top and the sheer net shirt from H&M on clearance. It felt so gooood to buy all that shit plus the makeup I bought. I got like two or three more things I didnt take pictures off bc I really feel like I have to try it on for you all to see the vision and Ian feel like trying all ts on. Maybe I will one day, who knows. 

This is the makeup I picked up from ulta, I'm 

not sure how much i'm liking it but it does

 look good. I just have trouble with change. I really 

lovee the blush. I dont know maybe I feel weird

 about the concealers because I know I need a 

brightening one and a setting spray, likee i need

 more products, IM NOT SATISFIED RIGHT NOW.

!😁Friendship😁!

Hey girl, 

 

Well well well 😏, come to find out friendship is the cure. For a second there, I felt like work was becoming a priority in my life. I mean there are perks that make it feel that way, I do have voice in the back of my head saying "i'm working to live". But I do put in 100% effort there. Im really fucking with someone's life. I know that I have the potential to leave a mark one someone and I want to be remembered in the best light. I want people to know that I truly care about what I do, and I want it to obvious and genuine. 

Anyway, bae and I went out for coffee after I got off, she was still working of course, and I was working on my blog. Some friends came in and we ended up having a really good time til like 8'oclock. It was such a fun time we all decide to hang again soon and we actually did! 

Ugh it just felt so good to just do something else. I need to get out more.

The night we went out I became really insightful, as I always do, and I opened up a bit. Very rewarding feeling when that's accepted and reciprocated. Anyway the next day I reflected alone and came to the conclusion I should calm the fuck down. I have a problem with trust and im so goddamn anoying about it that it's genuinly a sabotaging problem. Maybe this is some of my fault. Maybe I should be more trusting and i'd have more friends. I need to let my guard down. I need to be more open.

Now, there was a particular conversation that confirmed something for me. And I can't get too specific, hell I casnt even be broad, but i'll try to be. I hung out with someone, and just from that one hang out I know that the friendship is no longer compatible. And I talked about it with my aunt and she's tryna tell me I owe them a conversation about it, but I don't think I do. I think I can leave them with my last impression which was kind, caring , and compassionate. LOL what can I say, im a charmer. As far as I know I didnt treat them badly in anyway and I was the best friend I could be. But within the first 2/7th portion of the hangout I knew that I had outgrew this friend, nothings wrong with that. Hey, it's not like I went total a-wall on them. I swear i didnt ! I really tried my hardest with them, sincerly man.

With the death of one friend I welcome a new one, not as replacement, but as in im just open to it.

Whatever fuck yall

Im just playin lmaooooo 

(I have issues with feeling like I have to explain myself to people. I addressed this in therapy, really. )

I'll defiantly talk more about this topic for sure.

⚠️Under Construction ⚠️

 

Hey girl,

Waitttt yall im dead affff lmaooo 😭😭. Not yall actually viewing my blog. Baby, this is under construction af. Im working on making pages, finding new codes, and figuring out what I wanna add. So you know what, im gonna make a checklist of the things I want to add. 

1. Letterbox list
2. To do list 
3. Song of the week
4. more codes that fit my theme
5. More reviews
6. more 'feelings' post
7. make advice column 
8. idek yall I need some suggestions honestly

Hello Computa

Hey Girl , 

Sooo I lowkey love my job, What the fuck is that about lmaoooo. Don't even sit there n be like i'm supposed to, that how capitalism wins. But nah fr my job is important and not dead end like my last retail job. Ima healthcare worker ona slick. I work in the aba field i'm not a RBT but I will be soon. Hopefully before the year over, if not then the beginning of the next year.

 But anyway I had a difficult client today. Let's call him Cool Blue. It was my second time working with Cool Blue. The first time I wouldn't even count it fr bc during our session the lights went out and everyone went home early. plus I was supposed to be training with the BCBA but another client was in tantrum because the wifi went out. But yeah, I dont even think Cool Blue was upset at anything he was just destroying property and kicking me in the chest but just for the hell of it. But hey, at least I didnt have to clean up diarrhea. A win is a Win..